i'm biased i know, but i happen to have the cutest two nephews on the planet! every fiber of their being is 100% boy! i was so jealous of my parents getting to spend almost 2 weeks with them though I know they needed "Gee and Popo" time. i'm hopin to make it up around Christmas time. i miss them more than they could know. i realized today, that they are growing so quickly and all too soon Timothy will loose that little boy voice and be towering over me. I pray that day is prolonged as long as possible. for now they are my darling little sweet, rambunctious nephews that i adore with all my heart.
i'm currently listening to "The Sunnyside of the Street" by Steve Tyrell. today was a really peaceful day. i needed one of those with all the recent raging chaos. It seems to have finally subsided and seemed to do so once i firmly set my mind about some burdensome decisions. i'd been back and forth about a few things but everything's become much clearer in the last few days. like the fog lifted and now, i know what i gotta do: no questions...every conversation, thought, lesson learned - all pointing in the same direction.
it's hardly something i can ignore.
i ran across an old friend today...actually one of my best friends through junior/high school. she found me on facebook of all places and we got to chat via im for a bit. was good to catch up to here as i've often wondered how she was doing and what she was up to. i know some people dont necessarily agree with the online social networks and i understand their reasoning. much like some people in my life aren't happy about texting, etc. it's seemed to have changed how we sometimes relate to one another in person or even the inability to relate.
for instance, there's someone in my life that no matter where we go...this person is always texting. i could be sharing something and i'll get "uh huh" and i know this person is not listening. i also realized that i caught myself doing that the last time i was with my bro. so the new rule is that when i'm with others. the phone gets put on silent or turned off...cause honestly...what is more important than giving my undivided attention with the person i'm spending one-on-one time with.
not only that but being that dependent on technology has a strange affect on the soul. i only say this because i'd been reading comments or hearing from friends who were upset when they couldnt "harvest their crops" or check on their "cafe" via applications on facebook.
yes i'll admit I may be a farmville/cafeworld junkie. but i thought about that game...seriously...when does it end? does it ever or is it just a trap to keep gaining coins by farming crops or making dishes that you harvest/sell? isnt that so very much like the rat race of life? working to accomplish or gain more stuff? and at the end of the day what does it leave you with? a sense of accomplisment? not really...at least not for me.
the problem with these games is that you have to come back within a certain time or your crops wither or your food spoils...and so it ensnares you and then what are you putting off to tend to your crops or cafe? i realized that my time could be better spent working on other projects and accomplishing some things i've wanted to accomplish. like joining a gym and working out with a trainer and training to compete competitively in a 5k come next spring. yes that's the goal i've set and i'll be darned if farmville or cafeworld is gonna get in the way of that goal.
there's more than just the physical aspect of training and i can see why Paul related training for a race to our spiritual walks. i was given a statistic that it takes 2 weeks to get into shape and just three to fall out of. YIKES! 14 to 3. that's not a good ratio in terms of what it takes to lose the progress you've made in training. so what does that mean? you dont have time to be laxed or to relax. when its on, its on...and you gotta be diligent. so that's how i'm approaching this training...baby steps for now but will step it up inside of two weeks. why, because i'm determined.
i rediscovered this fire that i thought was missing. its the "just get out of my way, dont even bother, i ain't gonna quite till i get to where i'm supposed to be, nothin will get in my way" fire. it seems to be back with a vengence. the only possible deterrent: Krispy Kreme when the light's on or any donut shop in the LBK. yes..i know seems petty, but i'm not even kidding. Donuts/pasteries/pan dulce/dessert is my achilles heel. as for all the other projects in my life, moving forward full steam ahead. lots and lots of work...but in the end, i know it will be worth it. won't stop: can't be stopped.
also have a few new projects on the horizon. i have no clue where i'm gonna end up in this journey. seriously...life changed dramatically from graduation to Italy/Greece then to moving to a new city and even now, it does not look like i expected to. mostly in alot of good ways, coupled by some learning curves but all in all i'm grateful to be here: in this place at this time.
there are no excuses, no reasons...it's gotta be what it's gotta be and this is where rubber hits the road or my shoes hit the pavement. i'm not chasing pavement this time, Adele. No, its time to shut up and put up. whoooooo!
yeah no sadness here, no weeping and wallowing inspite of recent events. only hope, optimism, and determination. its amazingly beautiful and something beyond myself. Only God could explain.
challenging myself to be better each day and challenging the people around me.
as much as i'm not a fan of Miley Cyrus, I do think she got in right in her song "The Climb." It's great to get to the top but what put you there is the labor that went into the climb. definitely can't wait to see what the view looks like from the top!
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