something got a hold of us

i'm packing for my almost month long vacation from this temporary home. feels like just yesterday i was moving into this place and now i've completed a full semester. time flies...

when i first arrived, i thought i was on the cusp of one of the most amazing experiencings of my life. turned out it was just not in the way i thought it would be. funny how life does that to you now and again. i mean - those kinds of curve balls throw us for loops for sure but they also help us to see the really important things in life. curve balls also help us see what we're really made of, what we can endure, and what we want most of life.

i can say that is most definitely the case for me.

it's been a long, hard semester with lots and lots of lessons learned. despite all the changes and difficulties of the semester, there were some amazing moments too! in fact, many beautiful moments. new friendships and the returning of old friends...i'm blessed beyond measure.

there tends to be a natural inclination to cling to relationships that seem to be slipping away. i've learned that sometimes departures are necessary and i've learned that i definitely dont want people in my life who dont want to be in my life. its sometimes painful to let go and even more painful to realize the truth of the situation but in the end, we find that sometimes it was that relationship that hindered us from seeing something else so completely amazing and beautiful in our lives.

no regrets for the semester...some things i think i would've done differently if given the chance, but life can't be rewound and done over. it is what it is...what you've done is done, what you've said has been said...you cant go back and take it back, can't change it...can't make it into something different. you can learn from it, you can grow from it, but it is what it is.

it's a bit bittersweet. i'm definitely excited about the break and yes i will be traveling some super long distances over this one! have more to say but need to get on the road. love, peace, and grace always!