a little more...

interesting day today. my car failed to start due to a light i left on. thank goodness for some nice people who live in my complex. got my battery boosted and i was off to the races. walking across the commuter lot to the bus hutch to wait for the next bus was like walking a frozen tundra.

tomorrow's forecast calls for a high of 32 degrees and a 30% chance of snow. welcome to the panhandle!

so after finally getting to school, i get to class and after proceeded back home. had a nice quiet lunch and worked on some projects due in the next few days and started to get a jump start on studying.

took a nice break to talk to an old friend, not that she's old, but in that i've known her since i was in elementary. the conversation was genuine and it felt like old times. i'd almost forgotten what that was like. i dont understand why but there have been alot of re-entries of old friends into my life in the last few months. completely welcomed and has made me realize the amount of love in my life. sometimes hard to see...

its almost as if God knew i'd need to see it and see it NOW. i've had such bittersweet and solitary moments in the last few weeks. i had joked with my best friend about having a 30 day mourning period...just realizing that some things should just be let go. its hard to relinquish what once was or what you thought would be...hard to let it go for uncertainty and unfamiliarity. its bittersweet because while it can be painful you know that what's coming is better and what's to come could never come in your current state.

once again abstract.

just 11 more days until the end of the semester, at least for me. my last final is Dec 14tha nd i'm trying to decide where to spend my winter break. classes start back up Jan 13. hard to believe the year is coming to an end. i'm sure i'll do some year-end reflecting. just won't be tonite.

i'd like to talk about my experience at "Carol of Lights" tonight on campus. i ended up going by myself which i think surprised some people but i really wanted to go and everyone was working on cases or had class. so i decided a bit last minute but managed to get there early enough to find a parking spot by the library and walk over. i didnt think it was going to be as cold as it was....

i'd never been to one of these things so i was kinda curious to see what it was all about. the processional led by the Masked Rider, Raider Red, and the Saddle Tramps lasted about 25 minutes but the bell tower was chiming christmas music just before. there were tons of people so it was a bit festive almost a buzz in the air with excitement. so i find a spot and this group of guys ends up behind me. i have to say a big "thank you" to the sarcastic humor of this group...kept me laughing most of the night. so i'm thinking ok when the lights come on I better be wowed!

well wowed i was but not in a good way...needless to say...i'm glad i went and took part in some school tradition. something i had promised myself i'd do. i short changed myself, in terms of a normal college experience, the first time around for a number of reasons. given the opportunity to set things right the second time, i had decided i wanted to take advantage of all i could. hoping to do more of that in the semester to come but i'll blog about that later.

i had to run back home after because i forgot about an errand i needed to run. so i managed to defrost before heading back out..ran the errand and headed over to Barnes and Noble.

i dont know what it is about bookstores that leaves me in awe....i mean i really love books. like the library in the British Museum...holy cow! not that cows are holy...but you get my drift. its like "aaaahhhhhh" and then the "hallelujah chorus" starts right after. so yeah...needed to find a book i'd been looking for and had forgotten about a gift card i received from graduation. so i found two books and the end transaction cost me $3.80! so thank you gift card and giver of the gift card.

met up with a friend for a quiet dinner and then headed home. have to say that today was a nice departure from the week and its only wednesday. i'm completely grateful for the little things...still trying to work through some of the major things...but over all..the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter and i'm breathing easier than i have in a long while.

have an interview tomorrow...praying it goes well. will spend most of the day working on a case study and actually studying. i know dont faint. i need to insure my "a's" will remain "a's" and the only way to do that is to know the material and know it well for finals. the countdown to the end of semester 1 has begun!

it's been one of the hardest semesters but i have hope that it will be better than this...