It's only what you're asking for

oooo what a day.

the plans for the family vacay or off the charts. as always, some arrangements have been left to the last minute. i guess that's what makes us mexican? lol. not sure how this thing is gonna go down, but i will say that i'm determined to have a super great time.

a few frustrations on my plate and i just gotta get it out there and as far away from me as possible! Lol. i have quite a few decisions to make regarding a potential job and going to school not full-time but part-time. this is a smart route to go but it has potential consequences in the long haul.

i don't want to be rash and end up tying myself to something i dont want to be tied to!

my bro-in-law is back to the hospital as well. quite possibly, he'll have a j-tube but he's had some complications with the g-tube so not sure if that's going to happen. concerned for my sis, missing them, and just feeling a bit helpless.

it also makes me feel quilty that here she is going through this tough time and i'm off vacationing. causing alot of mixed emotions and i'm not quite sure what to do with them. just continuing to pray for her and that situation.

i did make an attempt at packing for the move but have not been very successful. tomorrow i pack and head to san antonio. vertical horizon will be the soundtrack for that leg of the trip. i know you may think, why that album? so many reasons. listening to it now and it takes me back down memory lane! i think its good to reflect on where you've been and where you've come from. there seems to be quite a bit of that going on.

i also realized there's a slew of stuff i need to buy for the new apt. i'd given most of my stuff away to my siblings when i moved back to west texas soooo long ago. didnt find most of what i had as necessary. it is now necessary!

new beginnings...they're beautiful. reading before going to sleep. not sure what to expect of this trip (aye!)...just hoping and praying it goes well.

finishin up arrangements for lubbock, a job, and school. its daunting and sometimes a bit intimidating...but what needs to be done must be done.

forging ahead with an attempt of fierceness.