sometimes things you'd never expect to happen: happen. i can pretty much say that's been my whole summer. if I could characterize the summer in one word, I'd use "traumatic." as if the workload for school wasnt enough which has been way more than any of my individual semesters since 2007 including the 18hr in-class with 12 hrs online semesters, life dealt my family some additional blows.
i keep hearing in my head "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger" and it scares me because my reaction is immediate "what is coming down the pike that could be worse than this that i need preparation for?" ok i'm not asking that question cause then God will only bring about those events that would answer that question...God i can gladly wait...i used to say that i wasnt really stunned by life events. i mean my dad's a pastor so i've pretty much seen and heard it all...well after the last month or so i can say that is mostly true.
saving grace has come in the form of people who love in spirit and in truth. that's all i can say. i'm so ever glad for those relationships. they've been a God-send. its allowed me to see past the mess of words and to see what's really important and for me its always been my family. to some it may not appear that way, but to those who know me best you know, well you know differently.
i cant exactly say that i'm surprised by the last round of events. unexpected for sure...but i feel a bit cynical saying that i was waiting for it. i mean...we all have people in our lives that uhhhmmm..deal in drama. and not just deal in it but rather live in it. i've been trying to cut the drama out of my life and its not been an easy task. i've learned this mostly from my dad who is completely non-dramatic and from ricardo, my significant other, who is cool as a cucumber. it amazes me...and that really is an understatement.
i also realized that these two men are in my life for a reason and its humbling. the summer has been full of hard lessons but lessons i'm grateful to learn. from previous experiences i know these lessons will come back for a time of application. i also know that you always reap what you sow...so i'm work at sowing better stuff. not always easy but it really does make us better people and at least for me, it lets me sleep at night.
i cant undo the wrongs of my past but at the same time i refuse to let people in the outer fringes hold me to those mistakes i've worked hard to move past and beyond. what is in the past is in the past. it cant be changed, can't be undone which is why i'm keeping my mouth shut. in the end there are few opinions i worry about and those that i do, i know exactly where i stand and when the sun sets that's really all that matters to me.
i can say that i'm so glad my mom's doing better and thanks to all of you who have been praying for her. i know she's impacted so many of your lives and if you've ever spent time at my house then you spent at least 30 minutes talking with my mom. for many of you, she learned your whole life story in about 15 minutes cause that's the kind of lady she is.
we're hoping and praying that the summer will end on a better note than what we started with. what more...we pray fall would be....boring! it would be a nice break. but this is how life goes, no? in seasons...some good, some not so good....a friend of mine posted on facebook the other day..."when life throws you lemons....don't just make lemonade......open up an aquas frescas on the south side and cash in...."
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
the unexpected
i never thought that my spring semester would be preparation for the marathon race i'm running now in the summer.
one family crisis right after another....
i've gotten alot of, you're under alot of stress right now, but honestly...i'm mean in sincere honesty: my sentiments reside somewhere between "roll up your sleeves and dig deep" to "we just have to do what we have to do." To some it may seem cold/calculating...but it's not trust me. It's more along the lines that my emotional tank is on empty and so rationale has taken the reigns.
not to mention, in crisis, something inside me kicks on and I shift into "look out for everyone" mode. maybe it has something to do with being a first born and all the opportunities in leadership. it's an innate part of my being. so there's no time for falling apart (in my mind). and honestly...i have a peace about the situation.
these last few months have had so many ups and downs, you'd think we'd spent the summer at six flags.
no, its just life.
the summer started with a mini-vacation to san antonio...on my way back, a delinquent decided to throw a rock/brick threw my driver-side window and steal my ipod. I make it back to the panhandle and life was starting to settle...
unexpectedly, one of my uncles passed away...from there life has thrown us one curve ball after another.
i had to deal with crazy changes with financial aid...and not in a good way...due to the way my graduate program is set up, I'm considered a part-time student this semester because I have 5 hrs and had 7 last...so even though I have 12 overall and am full-time...those pesky 5 hrs put me at part-time status which affected my grant amounts. i was not a happy camper about that....
so during that whole ordeal, my mom had surgery. She was in her second week of recovering when i found out i received a $4,000 scholarship from the National Society of Hispanic MBA's - Austin Chapter. Of course that was a major bright spot in my day! my mom reminded me of how God blesses our hard work. I have to agree....
had a great visit this last weekend with good friends and the person for whom I have hearts in my eyes for! LOL....while visiting, I got word that a good, close friend's grandpa had passed away.
and then the next bump in the road, if you will, arrived yesterday with my mom's visit to the ER monday evening and then later admittance into the hospital. She's in the intermediate care unit with congestive heart failure and possible pneumonia. so back to the hometown I go. lots of going home as of late...might need to chew on that for a bit....
I'm not frazzled like some would think I would be...no, i've got peace about this. and not that I know how any of it will turn out...i just know that if God has seen me through one rough and tumble semester/year...that in the end it's gonna be ok. we may not get the results we want but despite that...we have to be thankful.
i could choose to sit and wallow in the tragedies of yesterday....sit in the mourning...fail to see the blessings...but i've chosen different for myself and for my family. and I chose a long while back....time is much better spent appreciating the blessings of now....i can't give credit to myself but only to God...who has shown me immeasurable things...beyond my wildest imagination and if he can make a silly dream like "touring Italy" come true....and can change your path in an unexpected way that leads to joy....then yes...anything is possible with Him. He's given me more than I deserve and I know that its because of His unconditioinal love for each of us.
I understand it now because unconditional love has some powerful meaning in my life today. I realized that there are some things in my life that I'd not yet surrendered...and spending time tied to those things is draining and exhausting...i understand what is mean by the "truth shall set you free."
itunes is on random shuffle..."Adonai" just started....irony/coincidental...no, I think not.
here's the link so you can listen for yourself...
one family crisis right after another....
i've gotten alot of, you're under alot of stress right now, but honestly...i'm mean in sincere honesty: my sentiments reside somewhere between "roll up your sleeves and dig deep" to "we just have to do what we have to do." To some it may seem cold/calculating...but it's not trust me. It's more along the lines that my emotional tank is on empty and so rationale has taken the reigns.
not to mention, in crisis, something inside me kicks on and I shift into "look out for everyone" mode. maybe it has something to do with being a first born and all the opportunities in leadership. it's an innate part of my being. so there's no time for falling apart (in my mind). and honestly...i have a peace about the situation.
these last few months have had so many ups and downs, you'd think we'd spent the summer at six flags.
no, its just life.
the summer started with a mini-vacation to san antonio...on my way back, a delinquent decided to throw a rock/brick threw my driver-side window and steal my ipod. I make it back to the panhandle and life was starting to settle...
unexpectedly, one of my uncles passed away...from there life has thrown us one curve ball after another.
i had to deal with crazy changes with financial aid...and not in a good way...due to the way my graduate program is set up, I'm considered a part-time student this semester because I have 5 hrs and had 7 last...so even though I have 12 overall and am full-time...those pesky 5 hrs put me at part-time status which affected my grant amounts. i was not a happy camper about that....
so during that whole ordeal, my mom had surgery. She was in her second week of recovering when i found out i received a $4,000 scholarship from the National Society of Hispanic MBA's - Austin Chapter. Of course that was a major bright spot in my day! my mom reminded me of how God blesses our hard work. I have to agree....
had a great visit this last weekend with good friends and the person for whom I have hearts in my eyes for! LOL....while visiting, I got word that a good, close friend's grandpa had passed away.
and then the next bump in the road, if you will, arrived yesterday with my mom's visit to the ER monday evening and then later admittance into the hospital. She's in the intermediate care unit with congestive heart failure and possible pneumonia. so back to the hometown I go. lots of going home as of late...might need to chew on that for a bit....
I'm not frazzled like some would think I would be...no, i've got peace about this. and not that I know how any of it will turn out...i just know that if God has seen me through one rough and tumble semester/year...that in the end it's gonna be ok. we may not get the results we want but despite that...we have to be thankful.
i could choose to sit and wallow in the tragedies of yesterday....sit in the mourning...fail to see the blessings...but i've chosen different for myself and for my family. and I chose a long while back....time is much better spent appreciating the blessings of now....i can't give credit to myself but only to God...who has shown me immeasurable things...beyond my wildest imagination and if he can make a silly dream like "touring Italy" come true....and can change your path in an unexpected way that leads to joy....then yes...anything is possible with Him. He's given me more than I deserve and I know that its because of His unconditioinal love for each of us.
I understand it now because unconditional love has some powerful meaning in my life today. I realized that there are some things in my life that I'd not yet surrendered...and spending time tied to those things is draining and exhausting...i understand what is mean by the "truth shall set you free."
itunes is on random shuffle..."Adonai" just started....irony/coincidental...no, I think not.
here's the link so you can listen for yourself...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Life lines
funny how life brings circumstances that will cause you to literally stop and have quiet moments you need. the spring semester was plagued with out-of-control allergies. with the help of my hometown physician, we were finally able to get things under control and now im working towards eliminating allergies with an immuniologist. again apologies for the spelling...mine is atrocious.
i was so excited that summer would bring rest and relaxation only to find the complete opposite of that. its been one drama after another and while at times i sometimes feel overwhelmed, i've not completely fallen off my rocker. in fact, i can say that for the most part i've approached everything with as much positive energy as possible. i've also worked to keep things in perspective because some things you can change and some things you just can do nothing about.
so...while visiting my parents, someone decided to throw a brick/rock threw my driver side window and stole my ipod. so i spent the next day filing a police report and found out several vehicles in the area were hit and then had to have the window replaced. after the window was fixed we found something else wrong which caused a delay in the repair....and caused me to spend an additional day in my hometown.
at the end of that week, i got a call from my mom that my uncle had passed away. Life turned into a whirlwind of activities as my mom and her siblings made funeral arrangements and prepared for the days to come. while saying good-bye to a love one is never easy, the events of that followed culminated in a peaceful good-bye. its unfortunate that an event like that can bring together family but im glad that we were together. my mom's side of the family attended from all over the state with cousins coming from odessa and pecos and phone calls from family members sending their condolences. I can say that we were blessed with the outpouring of love and support.
the funeral was simple which is befitting of my uncle. after the burial service, the family made their way over to my grandmothers gravesite which was only a few rows away. we know that my uncle is at peace and in a better place.
then my mother already had surgery scheduled for today. i've spent most of the day at the hospital. its given me some much needed time to stop and read and get caught up on school work. did i mention i have 8 hrs right now? yeah....fun...
i'm staying with my mom overnight and then headed back to lubbock for class on sat then back to angelo to help care for my mom. she did well and the family is making arrangements to help with her recovery. will be 6 to 8 weeks before she's fully recovered. cant say enough about the love and support shown by friends and family. its meant alot.
as always, keeping my head up knowing that the stuff life throws your way can only make you stronger. challenges are never easy but they sure do test you and push you to limits you didnt know exist. at the end, being pushed is what makes us better people and gives us a better understanding of unconditional love, grace, and mercy....
i was so excited that summer would bring rest and relaxation only to find the complete opposite of that. its been one drama after another and while at times i sometimes feel overwhelmed, i've not completely fallen off my rocker. in fact, i can say that for the most part i've approached everything with as much positive energy as possible. i've also worked to keep things in perspective because some things you can change and some things you just can do nothing about.
so...while visiting my parents, someone decided to throw a brick/rock threw my driver side window and stole my ipod. so i spent the next day filing a police report and found out several vehicles in the area were hit and then had to have the window replaced. after the window was fixed we found something else wrong which caused a delay in the repair....and caused me to spend an additional day in my hometown.
at the end of that week, i got a call from my mom that my uncle had passed away. Life turned into a whirlwind of activities as my mom and her siblings made funeral arrangements and prepared for the days to come. while saying good-bye to a love one is never easy, the events of that followed culminated in a peaceful good-bye. its unfortunate that an event like that can bring together family but im glad that we were together. my mom's side of the family attended from all over the state with cousins coming from odessa and pecos and phone calls from family members sending their condolences. I can say that we were blessed with the outpouring of love and support.
the funeral was simple which is befitting of my uncle. after the burial service, the family made their way over to my grandmothers gravesite which was only a few rows away. we know that my uncle is at peace and in a better place.
then my mother already had surgery scheduled for today. i've spent most of the day at the hospital. its given me some much needed time to stop and read and get caught up on school work. did i mention i have 8 hrs right now? yeah....fun...
i'm staying with my mom overnight and then headed back to lubbock for class on sat then back to angelo to help care for my mom. she did well and the family is making arrangements to help with her recovery. will be 6 to 8 weeks before she's fully recovered. cant say enough about the love and support shown by friends and family. its meant alot.
as always, keeping my head up knowing that the stuff life throws your way can only make you stronger. challenges are never easy but they sure do test you and push you to limits you didnt know exist. at the end, being pushed is what makes us better people and gives us a better understanding of unconditional love, grace, and mercy....
Friday, May 14, 2010
so much to say
this time I've let two months lapse between my posting. sorry about that. life got really hectic here in the last few months. I've been on more roller coaster rides (figuratively) than I care to reminisce about. i made some major changes to my degree plan. went from a management concentration to health organization management and then changed to a dual masters program. love the program but it has had its share of challenges and by fair probably one of the most intense programs i've endured in terms of course work and expectations. however...its exactly what i love about the program.
i feel that i finally found my niche and its a very wonderful experience.
so with that I embark on an arduous year left in my program. i've obtained an internship with a children's clinic here. so very excited about the work and project possiblities there. i was also elected as VP of Finance for our health organzation management student association. so i'm really excited about the possiblities there and being able to work to improve what we do. will be busy with that in the next year and seeing the importance of networking.
its been a season of growing and with those kinds of seasons growing pains are inevitable. but these growing pains were more than i bargained for...(sigh)...however...i know that its for my good and yes i've learned so many valuable lessons. still alot of decisions to be made and i cant say i have all the answers...in fact if i'm certain of anything, its that things can change on a dime.
i was thinking back to this time last year....getting ready for graduation and getting ready to leave to Italy for a month...by far one of the most amazing and rewarding experiences of my life. i look back on those pictures with alot of nostalgia and fondness for the people who made that such a memorable experience. it changed me in so many ways...and i remember being on the ferry from brindisi to patras: thinking what could the future possibly hold?
never in a million years could i have predicted the things that have happened to me in this last year. i thought i was headed for law school and that road took a deviation for the best. there are still questions in life which i have no answers...and for now i'm content with walking down the road not knowing.
life is kinda funny that way.
some of the things i've learned: you cant make people love you the way you want to be loved or be in a relationships with you when they dont want to be...i wont get into much more about the happenings in my life. i've made this shift back into annonymity. hard to explain but yeah....needless to say i have more lessons to learn.
the summer will be short lived. my program is a two year - straight, no breaks kinda program. and we have these things called enhancements which are like workshops. we have to complete 10 units by fall....so it means workshops two weeks after finals this spring and two weeks before classes start this fall...that leaves a little over a week for a break before summer school starts...and leaves a week between summer and fall...ugh! vacation?
i plan on taking one very soon....and i promise to update a little more...lots more to say but of course its late and i have to be back at school tomorrow morning by 8 am after being there 8 am - 9:30 pm today. it was grueling and i'm exhausted in ways i cant even explain.
i feel that i finally found my niche and its a very wonderful experience.
so with that I embark on an arduous year left in my program. i've obtained an internship with a children's clinic here. so very excited about the work and project possiblities there. i was also elected as VP of Finance for our health organzation management student association. so i'm really excited about the possiblities there and being able to work to improve what we do. will be busy with that in the next year and seeing the importance of networking.
its been a season of growing and with those kinds of seasons growing pains are inevitable. but these growing pains were more than i bargained for...(sigh)...however...i know that its for my good and yes i've learned so many valuable lessons. still alot of decisions to be made and i cant say i have all the answers...in fact if i'm certain of anything, its that things can change on a dime.
i was thinking back to this time last year....getting ready for graduation and getting ready to leave to Italy for a month...by far one of the most amazing and rewarding experiences of my life. i look back on those pictures with alot of nostalgia and fondness for the people who made that such a memorable experience. it changed me in so many ways...and i remember being on the ferry from brindisi to patras: thinking what could the future possibly hold?
never in a million years could i have predicted the things that have happened to me in this last year. i thought i was headed for law school and that road took a deviation for the best. there are still questions in life which i have no answers...and for now i'm content with walking down the road not knowing.
life is kinda funny that way.
some of the things i've learned: you cant make people love you the way you want to be loved or be in a relationships with you when they dont want to be...i wont get into much more about the happenings in my life. i've made this shift back into annonymity. hard to explain but yeah....needless to say i have more lessons to learn.
the summer will be short lived. my program is a two year - straight, no breaks kinda program. and we have these things called enhancements which are like workshops. we have to complete 10 units by fall....so it means workshops two weeks after finals this spring and two weeks before classes start this fall...that leaves a little over a week for a break before summer school starts...and leaves a week between summer and fall...ugh! vacation?
i plan on taking one very soon....and i promise to update a little more...lots more to say but of course its late and i have to be back at school tomorrow morning by 8 am after being there 8 am - 9:30 pm today. it was grueling and i'm exhausted in ways i cant even explain.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
90%
once again, its late but i'm finally winding down and have a few things on my mind.
first, let me say its good to be back to the land of the breathing and semi-healthy! lol. The last eight weeks were insane. almost literally. I found myself dealing with out-of-control allergies which triggered a sinus infection. I'm asthmatic so the sinus infection quickly escalated in a weeks time into bronchitis. i saw the dr. 6 different occassions when through a total of 11 medications ranging from antibiotics to breathing inhalations to steroids. yes, i should be completely buff by now - but i'm not...wrong kind of steroids. i give credit to Omnaris that finally got my sinuses under control although it was at the cost of my first born (almost). so finally after 20+ breathing treatments, things are back under control.
i've been playing catch-up on a number of fronts: work, school, home-life, family, and friends.
its kinda exhausting...but i'm getting a much needed rest over the weekend.
ok so the major happenings.
My sis and fam -
They've moved back to Texas. YAY! super happy cause that means i get to see the nephews more often and well....they're so frickin' cute. In fact, sitting on my bookshelf is a master piece created by Sir Timothy. He says to me (while i was there), "Mimi - i made you something. Let me go get it!" so he runs off and runs back with this odd creation in his hands and says, "Look, i made it just for you! you can put it on your shelf with all your decorations and tell your mama look what Timmy made for me!"
I'm crackin up thinking about his little presentation as I type this. Prime example as to why I love those boys. They always make me smile by something they do or say! So yes, I'm very glad they are in Texas. Glad my sis is back cause I didnt get to see her too often. I know that my parents can help her and give both her and her hubby some relief (which is always nice)!
Cary has his next surgery May 10. So if you can be praying for him and the fam - I know they'd appreciate it much. I have to say some good things about my bro-in-law cause he's been through alot and still keeping positive. I know he made this decision in the best interest of his family cause he loves them. so yeah...my viewpoint has definitely changed in a positive direction.
The new man in my life - things are going well. Getting ready to fly out to Austin later this week with a short trip to san antonio and then houston to visit friends. This relationship is so completely different from the others and i'm so happy for what he brings to my life. He's been super supportive of my educational goals and just encouraged me when i've wanted to throw in the towel. Helps me to stay focused on the goal. Overall, he's just an amazing guy and i'm glad our paths crossed in the timing that they did.
school - well, its escuela...and i'll be glad to have a break after graduation next year. fall 2011 hasnt been quite decided but i can say i wont have any classes that summer! for the first time since 2007. amazing...
well Congreso is this weekend and for the first time in 20 years, i wont be in attendance. i cant believe it's been 20 years...there are alot of reasons why i wont be attending but i think at 20 years it was time to say good-bye. Smange is still coordinating the event and all the staff and event will be in my prayers over the weekend and of course the participants.
this year has been about new starts and new roads to travel. at times, its scary and i'm not really sure how to navigate through the new waters. it can be terrifying but at the same time exhilarating and exciting. life has more to offer and i'm working at taking advantage of the opportunities. doesnt make sense to some and to others they get what i'm talkin about. perfectly cool. not meant for everyone to get.
so as always - life is sooo completely than i ever expected and in so many ways its so completely amazing! i wouldnt change how anything has happened. some relationships i wish were better but you can only do what you can do. you cant make someone want to be in a relationship with you and you cant do their part either. doesnt work that way...and so sometimes its just best to say good-bye and pray that you get a second chance later.
i'm done stressing or worrying about things so completely out of my control.
so life is good and its sweet...sometimes bittersweet but sweet nonetheless!
first, let me say its good to be back to the land of the breathing and semi-healthy! lol. The last eight weeks were insane. almost literally. I found myself dealing with out-of-control allergies which triggered a sinus infection. I'm asthmatic so the sinus infection quickly escalated in a weeks time into bronchitis. i saw the dr. 6 different occassions when through a total of 11 medications ranging from antibiotics to breathing inhalations to steroids. yes, i should be completely buff by now - but i'm not...wrong kind of steroids. i give credit to Omnaris that finally got my sinuses under control although it was at the cost of my first born (almost). so finally after 20+ breathing treatments, things are back under control.
i've been playing catch-up on a number of fronts: work, school, home-life, family, and friends.
its kinda exhausting...but i'm getting a much needed rest over the weekend.
ok so the major happenings.
My sis and fam -
They've moved back to Texas. YAY! super happy cause that means i get to see the nephews more often and well....they're so frickin' cute. In fact, sitting on my bookshelf is a master piece created by Sir Timothy. He says to me (while i was there), "Mimi - i made you something. Let me go get it!" so he runs off and runs back with this odd creation in his hands and says, "Look, i made it just for you! you can put it on your shelf with all your decorations and tell your mama look what Timmy made for me!"
I'm crackin up thinking about his little presentation as I type this. Prime example as to why I love those boys. They always make me smile by something they do or say! So yes, I'm very glad they are in Texas. Glad my sis is back cause I didnt get to see her too often. I know that my parents can help her and give both her and her hubby some relief (which is always nice)!
Cary has his next surgery May 10. So if you can be praying for him and the fam - I know they'd appreciate it much. I have to say some good things about my bro-in-law cause he's been through alot and still keeping positive. I know he made this decision in the best interest of his family cause he loves them. so yeah...my viewpoint has definitely changed in a positive direction.
The new man in my life - things are going well. Getting ready to fly out to Austin later this week with a short trip to san antonio and then houston to visit friends. This relationship is so completely different from the others and i'm so happy for what he brings to my life. He's been super supportive of my educational goals and just encouraged me when i've wanted to throw in the towel. Helps me to stay focused on the goal. Overall, he's just an amazing guy and i'm glad our paths crossed in the timing that they did.
school - well, its escuela...and i'll be glad to have a break after graduation next year. fall 2011 hasnt been quite decided but i can say i wont have any classes that summer! for the first time since 2007. amazing...
well Congreso is this weekend and for the first time in 20 years, i wont be in attendance. i cant believe it's been 20 years...there are alot of reasons why i wont be attending but i think at 20 years it was time to say good-bye. Smange is still coordinating the event and all the staff and event will be in my prayers over the weekend and of course the participants.
this year has been about new starts and new roads to travel. at times, its scary and i'm not really sure how to navigate through the new waters. it can be terrifying but at the same time exhilarating and exciting. life has more to offer and i'm working at taking advantage of the opportunities. doesnt make sense to some and to others they get what i'm talkin about. perfectly cool. not meant for everyone to get.
so as always - life is sooo completely than i ever expected and in so many ways its so completely amazing! i wouldnt change how anything has happened. some relationships i wish were better but you can only do what you can do. you cant make someone want to be in a relationship with you and you cant do their part either. doesnt work that way...and so sometimes its just best to say good-bye and pray that you get a second chance later.
i'm done stressing or worrying about things so completely out of my control.
so life is good and its sweet...sometimes bittersweet but sweet nonetheless!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
my mocos and me
whew....been a while since i wrote one of these!
i should probably update you all since i've been a bit MIA.
not purposely MIA but i found myself employed and changed my concentration. so instead of getting one master's degree, i'll have two...
some of you know that i'm seeing someone. he lives in austin which means i've frequented austin more than usual. and yes, he made a trip up to north to my neck of the woods and even met my parents. he's sweet and truly amazing.
i'm not really sure where to go with this blog. so much has happened since i last wrote.
i got really sick and i'm under the conviction that the pandhandle is not where i need to live permanently. the weather does not agree with me or rather, i do not agree with it. i'm a tropical people. lol.
alright, i had planned on writing more but its now late and i need to sleep. still recovering from my last round fight with bronchitis/upper respiratory infection/asthma. it was insane....
promise to write and update this weekend. time is making itself a bit more affordable lately. it's nice...
i should probably update you all since i've been a bit MIA.
not purposely MIA but i found myself employed and changed my concentration. so instead of getting one master's degree, i'll have two...
some of you know that i'm seeing someone. he lives in austin which means i've frequented austin more than usual. and yes, he made a trip up to north to my neck of the woods and even met my parents. he's sweet and truly amazing.
i'm not really sure where to go with this blog. so much has happened since i last wrote.
i got really sick and i'm under the conviction that the pandhandle is not where i need to live permanently. the weather does not agree with me or rather, i do not agree with it. i'm a tropical people. lol.
alright, i had planned on writing more but its now late and i need to sleep. still recovering from my last round fight with bronchitis/upper respiratory infection/asthma. it was insane....
promise to write and update this weekend. time is making itself a bit more affordable lately. it's nice...
Monday, March 8, 2010
oh happy day...
its been insanity as of late. i realize it's been a really long time since i've updated. i can only say that my delays in posting have been with good reason. Sometime at the first of feb, my allergies went a little BAZURK...and that landed me in the dr's office about the 10th of Feb.
Well needless to say since then, I've been back for a total of 6 visits. I was still pretty congested up until today and i'm still recovering though i feel a ka'million times better than i did a few weeks ago. yes, two antibiotics, three steriods, a series of breathing treatments, and a new inhaler and i'm on the road to recovery!
i realize it's late and i know you're probably thinking i'm burning the midnight oil. its not on purpose. i had a case i needed to wrap up and another major project. the weekend's activities didnt allow me the free-time i was hoping for...but all for good cause.
ok so the super big news everyone's been waiting to hear. mr. casillas met my parents this weekend. yes, this is the new man in my life as one church member referred to him this morning! LOL.
it was a pretty amazing weekend and i plan on expounding more but i need to sleep.
all i can say is i'm pretty happy.
my sis officially moved back to Texas today and i got to visit with my nephews, sister, and her husband for a few hours before heading back to the panhandle. i'm so glad they're back and cant wait to see them soon!
Well needless to say since then, I've been back for a total of 6 visits. I was still pretty congested up until today and i'm still recovering though i feel a ka'million times better than i did a few weeks ago. yes, two antibiotics, three steriods, a series of breathing treatments, and a new inhaler and i'm on the road to recovery!
i realize it's late and i know you're probably thinking i'm burning the midnight oil. its not on purpose. i had a case i needed to wrap up and another major project. the weekend's activities didnt allow me the free-time i was hoping for...but all for good cause.
ok so the super big news everyone's been waiting to hear. mr. casillas met my parents this weekend. yes, this is the new man in my life as one church member referred to him this morning! LOL.
it was a pretty amazing weekend and i plan on expounding more but i need to sleep.
all i can say is i'm pretty happy.
my sis officially moved back to Texas today and i got to visit with my nephews, sister, and her husband for a few hours before heading back to the panhandle. i'm so glad they're back and cant wait to see them soon!
Monday, January 25, 2010
goodness...
my last post was something like January 6. i'd been trying to get a post up since then but life has been crazy insane (all in a good way) in the last few weeks! there were some subjects i didnt want to blog about just yet as they weren't "common public knowledge" but i think its safe to say that most subjects are well known. YAY!
mostly, i've spent alot of time traveling with most of my time spent in Austin! yes that's right, Austin, TX home of the Longhorns. I even went to a longhorn basketball game! LOL. don't choke now. it was after the wake of our horendous firing of Coach Leach and I was very much in an anti-TTU ranting mode. I love my school but it doesnt exempt us from having a bunch of bonehead administrators who dont handle situations very well. not sure if my dad's renewing his season tickets for next year so we will just have to see.
have to say the new year started out in a completely unexpected way. like i couldnt have predicted it if i saw it coming or if it was right in my face! yes sometimes life hands you those kinds of cards and while unexpected they can turn out to be the most amazing experiences of your life. the end of 2009 saw the departure of some "characters" in my life. some i was so ready to see go and others i feel a bit differently about. some have left the picture temporarily and i know will re-enter the picture when its appropriate. perfectly ok with me.
sometimes people just need some time away from each other to grow and experience stuff outside of each other. nothing wrong with that and holding on would only make things worse. again dont assume you know what i'm talking about here cause i can pretty much say unless you've talked to me in the last few days, then you know nothing about this (as my nephew would say!) aye que nino!
love those little boys!
i also have to say there's an amazing new person in my life. well he's not really that new since i've known him for a very long time, but new in that he re-entered my life at the end of Spring 2009. it's been an interesting road since summer 2009 and i have to say that everything between us evolved very naturally. i'm not giving names or details just because of my stand on annonymity but if you must know who he is, he's listed on my facebook status.
just have to say that this relationship is so very different from all the others and what i appreciate most about this person is truth and honesty. I can say that i truly feel like myself when i'm with this person and i dont feel like i'm being forced to be something other than what i really am. in other words, i dont feel like this person is trying to make me what they want me to be which has been the case in many other relationships. so yes i think he's a keeper! what he does and what he says match up completely and i appreciate that more than he probably realizes.
i'm sure you might be asking "is he going to read this?" and the answer is probably so. but i know he'll read it without judgement or making assumptions which is a massive sigh of relief! LOL. in the end, i think the only person who knows what's right for me is me. i have been overwhelmed with the amount of support i've recevied regarding this new relationship and in the end time will tell all, as they say! for now, i'm enjoying every moment of life and soaking in each experience and opportunity. that's all i really can do after all!
i will say that i'm loving school and loving my new program! it has presented challenges which i had been anxiously awaiting. not to mention (drum roll please!) i am now EMPLOYED! whoo hooo...i had a massive slew of interviews all at once and this new position gave me the most peace about pursuits/goals/etc...will allow me to obtain some new experiences while still pursuing educational goals and allowing me to finish as projected. really is amazing and about "right timing." so very glad for that....
getting ready for the day - going to be a long one! but an amazing one at that!
Always
Laura
mostly, i've spent alot of time traveling with most of my time spent in Austin! yes that's right, Austin, TX home of the Longhorns. I even went to a longhorn basketball game! LOL. don't choke now. it was after the wake of our horendous firing of Coach Leach and I was very much in an anti-TTU ranting mode. I love my school but it doesnt exempt us from having a bunch of bonehead administrators who dont handle situations very well. not sure if my dad's renewing his season tickets for next year so we will just have to see.
have to say the new year started out in a completely unexpected way. like i couldnt have predicted it if i saw it coming or if it was right in my face! yes sometimes life hands you those kinds of cards and while unexpected they can turn out to be the most amazing experiences of your life. the end of 2009 saw the departure of some "characters" in my life. some i was so ready to see go and others i feel a bit differently about. some have left the picture temporarily and i know will re-enter the picture when its appropriate. perfectly ok with me.
sometimes people just need some time away from each other to grow and experience stuff outside of each other. nothing wrong with that and holding on would only make things worse. again dont assume you know what i'm talking about here cause i can pretty much say unless you've talked to me in the last few days, then you know nothing about this (as my nephew would say!) aye que nino!
love those little boys!
i also have to say there's an amazing new person in my life. well he's not really that new since i've known him for a very long time, but new in that he re-entered my life at the end of Spring 2009. it's been an interesting road since summer 2009 and i have to say that everything between us evolved very naturally. i'm not giving names or details just because of my stand on annonymity but if you must know who he is, he's listed on my facebook status.
just have to say that this relationship is so very different from all the others and what i appreciate most about this person is truth and honesty. I can say that i truly feel like myself when i'm with this person and i dont feel like i'm being forced to be something other than what i really am. in other words, i dont feel like this person is trying to make me what they want me to be which has been the case in many other relationships. so yes i think he's a keeper! what he does and what he says match up completely and i appreciate that more than he probably realizes.
i'm sure you might be asking "is he going to read this?" and the answer is probably so. but i know he'll read it without judgement or making assumptions which is a massive sigh of relief! LOL. in the end, i think the only person who knows what's right for me is me. i have been overwhelmed with the amount of support i've recevied regarding this new relationship and in the end time will tell all, as they say! for now, i'm enjoying every moment of life and soaking in each experience and opportunity. that's all i really can do after all!
i will say that i'm loving school and loving my new program! it has presented challenges which i had been anxiously awaiting. not to mention (drum roll please!) i am now EMPLOYED! whoo hooo...i had a massive slew of interviews all at once and this new position gave me the most peace about pursuits/goals/etc...will allow me to obtain some new experiences while still pursuing educational goals and allowing me to finish as projected. really is amazing and about "right timing." so very glad for that....
getting ready for the day - going to be a long one! but an amazing one at that!
Always
Laura
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
hello 2010
its now a week into 2010. life as i once new it has changed forever! lol. there's a lot to talk about but i have to keep this one short. need to get some stuff done this afternoon and i've been procrastinating! ish...
school is about to start next week. excited about getting back into a routine. i've also had a few job interviews and phone calls for interviews as well! so i'm hopeful!
enjoyed the visit with the nephews. those boys completely crack me up. they do and say the most funniest things. they also have such completely different personallities.
i have my law school tour this week. three schools this round including two in houston and one in san antonio. will visit a few friends while making the round. there's also some other news but i havent quite decided what i want to say about that. just will say that there is a signficant other in my life and he's pretty amazing. but i'll talk about that later...
for now i need to figure out what to pack. headed to houston tomorrow overight for two tours and then headed to austin for the weekend! have more to share will do so later.
always
school is about to start next week. excited about getting back into a routine. i've also had a few job interviews and phone calls for interviews as well! so i'm hopeful!
enjoyed the visit with the nephews. those boys completely crack me up. they do and say the most funniest things. they also have such completely different personallities.
i have my law school tour this week. three schools this round including two in houston and one in san antonio. will visit a few friends while making the round. there's also some other news but i havent quite decided what i want to say about that. just will say that there is a signficant other in my life and he's pretty amazing. but i'll talk about that later...
for now i need to figure out what to pack. headed to houston tomorrow overight for two tours and then headed to austin for the weekend! have more to share will do so later.
always
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
one more time
i'm back for a few days...yes in the 806. have a few things to take care of. I wasn't expecting to be here this early but given the weather warnings for tomorrow figured it was better to get here early. have an interview wed and hopin that works out. if not...i know that the right thing will come along in the right time. so not worried about it...just going about due diligence.
i figured i should check my mail too - otherwise it would be a whole month without being checked! ish! ok so its late and gonna spend the day with my madre who is here with me! will be back home sometime wed and then headed to austin the first of the new year and excited about it!
i figured i should check my mail too - otherwise it would be a whole month without being checked! ish! ok so its late and gonna spend the day with my madre who is here with me! will be back home sometime wed and then headed to austin the first of the new year and excited about it!
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